A Fresh Start

I continuously write a post to FB, but don't ever hit submit.

Clearly I need to start expressing myself again.  And this is just the place to do it.
My poor little abandoned blog.

I have been having lots of feelings in the way of being disappointed in someone for a choice they made which did not directly affect me (it could have, had things gone bad, indirectly affected me).  I suppose I wish that this person had been able to make a better judgement call.  Had been able to say no.  Had been able to look somewhere else for what was needed.

I found out from someone else regarding the thing that happened.  My friend chose to hide what happened from me - and I understand why.  But oh how I just want to smack my friend upside the head and and pin a sign above his mirror which would read "don't be a douche bag."

Aside from being disappointed in somebody else's life choice I've been writing a list in my head of things I'd like to change about myself.
I turned 30 in July and there are still many things which I somewhat dislike about myself.
My attitude, how non witty/funny I am, my sarcastic nature, my inability to find joy in the small things, people call me boss because I am bossy.  I hate that I'm bossy/mother like.  Always have been.  Don't know how to undo it.  My singleness.

I really don't know how to undo the singleness.  I know a bunch of girls, non-single guys, or guys who can't make good life choices.  I don't get out enough.  I apparently don't know how to use a dating site.

Apparently a Fresh Start is code for A Bunch of Complaining.

Summer 2011

It's already May! That means it's time to start looking forward to another fun Portland Summer. I have 3 weeks off in June and 3 weeks off in August. I'm debating going home in August for some of the 3 weeks.

I thought that I'd start a list of websites that have helpful information for what to do, where to go.....

http://oregonfarmersmarkets.org/directory/directory.html
http://www.portlandonline.com/parks/index.cfm?c=52643
http://myoregonfarm.org/
http://www.pickyourown.org/ORporteast.htm#listings
http://www.atomic-arts.org/wp-content/uploads/2011/05/trek-back.jpg
http://www.tsgpdx.com/events%2Bnews

ok - this isn't until October- but I have to remember to go again this year:
http://www.portlandnursery.com/events/appletasting.shtml


This post will have much more added, or an adendum, or something! There's so much to do here in the Summer and I look forward to discovering even more than I did last year.

Abandonment

Wow, it's been a super long time. I've let myself get addicted to Facebook and have ignored the urge to write. Way back in October I started NSO-ing for the Rose City Rollers. In November I went home for Thanksgiving. At the end of December my mom came to visit - during that trip I enjoyed a maple bacon donut from Voodoo....it was delicious! In January mom left and I began the process of packing up all of my stuff. In February I moved to Gladstone. I'm renting a room in a house. It's 3 miles from work which is super convenient (especially on sunny days, because then I can walk). In March, um, I can't think of anything wonderful or life changing that happened this month. April 13 I celebrated my 6 month-a-versary as an NSO. I've also decided to start learning the rules for Roller Derby so that I can ref/become level one certified. What a quick little update. I will write more often. I need to make it a goal.

Wedding Card Box

Card box created for the wedding of Stephanie and James Schnedier (Married August 7, 2010).
I'm bummed I didn't get a pic of it open as the boxes were hinged and it was pretty awesome.
The box reads: When there is Joy there is hope, When there is Hope there is love, When there is Love Anything is Possible

Dear Life

You've lead me here and now I feel as though I am stuck.
I think it was catching up with people I hadn't seen in so many years
that's made me realize that I really need to get a move on.
I just don't know how anymore.
I feel as though i'm at a place where i'm not growing, not learning,
not becoming who I want to be.
Jealous of some? Yes. Sad? Yes.
I have all these crazy thoughts running through my head,
I just don't know how to get there.

why does it seem so hard?
Is it supposed to be like this...............I wish I was a better saver.
I'd pack all my crap and go somewhere

alton's "diet"...could I follow it??

Daily:
Fruits
Leafy Greens
Nuts
Carrots
Green Tea

3X Weekly
Oily Fish
Yogurt
Broccoli
Sweet Potato
Avocado

1X Weekly
Red Meat
Pasta
Dessert
Alcohol
0X Weekly
Fast Food
Soda
Processed Meals
Canned Soups
“Diet” Anything

And last but not least eat BREAKFAST (Alton likes his “purple”):
Buff Smoothie
Recipe courtesy Alton Brown, 2009
Prep Time:
10 min
Inactive Prep Time:
8 hr 0 min
Cook Time:
--
Level:
Easy
Serves:
24 ounces
Ingredients
4 ounces plain, low-fat soy milk
4 ounces acai, grape, or pomegranate juice
4 ounces frozen banana
4 ounces frozen strawberries
4 ounces frozen blueberries
4 ounces frozen peaches
Directions
Combine the soy milk, juice, banana, strawberries, blueberries, and the peaches in the carafe of a blender. Cover and refrigerate overnight or up to 8 hours.

In the morning, or when the fruit is partially thawed, put the carafe on the base of the blender, start at the lowest speed and slowly accelerate to medium, until you achieve a vortex. Blend on medium for 1 minute. Increase the speed to high and blend for an additional minute. Serve immediately.

2010

a new year
a fresh start

nothing has changed i'd really like it to

did take a short road trip
burmasuperstar.com
greenapplebooks.com

good food, amazing book/cd/dvd finds

I miss living in a city that offers culture
and nite life
and amazing food experiences

Goal: Get Out Of Town (for good)
Goal to be met: By end of year --- if not September/October Time so long as a certain
someone is Married by then.

There's a lot to look forward to, i've just got to open my eyes and look a little harder