Abandonment

Wow, it's been a super long time. I've let myself get addicted to Facebook and have ignored the urge to write. Way back in October I started NSO-ing for the Rose City Rollers. In November I went home for Thanksgiving. At the end of December my mom came to visit - during that trip I enjoyed a maple bacon donut from Voodoo....it was delicious! In January mom left and I began the process of packing up all of my stuff. In February I moved to Gladstone. I'm renting a room in a house. It's 3 miles from work which is super convenient (especially on sunny days, because then I can walk). In March, um, I can't think of anything wonderful or life changing that happened this month. April 13 I celebrated my 6 month-a-versary as an NSO. I've also decided to start learning the rules for Roller Derby so that I can ref/become level one certified. What a quick little update. I will write more often. I need to make it a goal.

Wedding Card Box

Card box created for the wedding of Stephanie and James Schnedier (Married August 7, 2010).
I'm bummed I didn't get a pic of it open as the boxes were hinged and it was pretty awesome.
The box reads: When there is Joy there is hope, When there is Hope there is love, When there is Love Anything is Possible

Dear Life

You've lead me here and now I feel as though I am stuck.
I think it was catching up with people I hadn't seen in so many years
that's made me realize that I really need to get a move on.
I just don't know how anymore.
I feel as though i'm at a place where i'm not growing, not learning,
not becoming who I want to be.
Jealous of some? Yes. Sad? Yes.
I have all these crazy thoughts running through my head,
I just don't know how to get there.

why does it seem so hard?
Is it supposed to be like this...............I wish I was a better saver.
I'd pack all my crap and go somewhere

alton's "diet"...could I follow it??

Daily:
Fruits
Leafy Greens
Nuts
Carrots
Green Tea

3X Weekly
Oily Fish
Yogurt
Broccoli
Sweet Potato
Avocado

1X Weekly
Red Meat
Pasta
Dessert
Alcohol
0X Weekly
Fast Food
Soda
Processed Meals
Canned Soups
“Diet” Anything

And last but not least eat BREAKFAST (Alton likes his “purple”):
Buff Smoothie
Recipe courtesy Alton Brown, 2009
Prep Time:
10 min
Inactive Prep Time:
8 hr 0 min
Cook Time:
--
Level:
Easy
Serves:
24 ounces
Ingredients
4 ounces plain, low-fat soy milk
4 ounces acai, grape, or pomegranate juice
4 ounces frozen banana
4 ounces frozen strawberries
4 ounces frozen blueberries
4 ounces frozen peaches
Directions
Combine the soy milk, juice, banana, strawberries, blueberries, and the peaches in the carafe of a blender. Cover and refrigerate overnight or up to 8 hours.

In the morning, or when the fruit is partially thawed, put the carafe on the base of the blender, start at the lowest speed and slowly accelerate to medium, until you achieve a vortex. Blend on medium for 1 minute. Increase the speed to high and blend for an additional minute. Serve immediately.

2010

a new year
a fresh start

nothing has changed i'd really like it to

did take a short road trip
burmasuperstar.com
greenapplebooks.com

good food, amazing book/cd/dvd finds

I miss living in a city that offers culture
and nite life
and amazing food experiences

Goal: Get Out Of Town (for good)
Goal to be met: By end of year --- if not September/October Time so long as a certain
someone is Married by then.

There's a lot to look forward to, i've just got to open my eyes and look a little harder

Dear...

Dear....

I miss you so very much! More than maybe you know, i'm not really sure

Dear....

You are an amazing man, and i'm glad you are still doing what you love (well, I assume you love it)

Dear....

I miss dancing in the rain/snow with you, I can't imagine that part of my life without you

Dear...

I miss your friendship, I know I haven't lost it but it's not the same when you live on opposite sides of the states!

Dear...

Thinking about you makes me sad that we weren't able to remain friends, what happened between us?

Dear...

I didn't always understand you, but you made things much more interesting and I always respected your off beat ways!

Dear...

You were an inspiration, my last year of college would not have been the same without you

Dear...

I've always loved that we were able to remain friends, my life was made better for knowing you

not so much joy

so i'm in a slump
a big one
a big depressed slump

it's causing me to not get any work done
it's causing me to not want to do anything

it's a work/life slump
it's not good.

is admitting it the first step to getting out of this
dark and twisty place?

(yeah...I quoted grey's anatomy...)