The 5 Things That Make Me Most Happy Right Now (Question #5)

5. The freedom to express myself
4. My wonderful friends
3. Roller Derby and the amazing community that I’ve found through it.
2. My mom - the love and support she gives me - always.
1. The knowledge that tomorrow is a new day and I get to start fresh.

5- I get to use this blog, facebook, my voice to express myself and my feelings. I think that's pretty rad. And in the process I get a better knowledge of who I am. Even more rad.

From this website:http://dianae.deviantart.com/art/Be-Yourself-176266688#

4 - The people who have entered my life since I moved to Portland are all amazingly wonderful. I am thankful for every interaction I have with them.

Epic Cartoon II By Keary Ortiz 

3 - I'm not sure what I would be doing with my life if I didn't have derby. And I certainly wouldn't have all the amazing friends if I hadn't gotten myself involved in a big ass league.

2 - My mom - she's the most supportive and loving and I never tell her often enough that I love her. Nor do I call her or write her often enough. Must make better connections with her.

1 - No really - deep breath. New Day. I am always thankful to wake up and face whatever lies ahead of me.

10 Things I Would Tell My 16 Year-Old Self (Question #4)

1. Save your money.   
2. Life is full of surprises - embrace them all.
3. Travel.  Use that saved money and Travel.
4. Love the people who come into your life and learn what you can from them.
5. Never stop believing in yourself.
6. Don’t settle for that guy will meet in 2011.  
7. You won’t ever have all the answers - and that’s ok.
8. Hug your mom more.
9. Dance more.
10. Don’t be afraid to make bad choices.  But own that they are yours and learn what you can from them.

All Stars

Instead of being at Wild West Showdown as a crew head NSO I am at home.

I decided that there was no way that my body would have held up for the weekend.  Still being slightly sick and all.  After seeing how late things ran last night (past midnight), I am glad for the decision I made! I've been exhausted by 9:30/10.  No way I would have made 3 days of working several bouts.

So last night I decided to go to the RCR All Star Meet and Greet.  Which, I did complain that nobody was meeting or greeting me.  They were all mingling with each other.  Though - I do know pretty much all of them.

It was pointed out there was a photo booth.  Nothing like a photo booth (with a self taking picture button) to liven things up!

Panda, Scylla, and Hussy

 All Star Photo Bomb.  Listing their numbers will be easier than names (how NSO of me):

1889, 601, 47, 26, 50, 245, 81, 73, 423, 210, 77, 503, 808, 17h, 49

It's up to you to figure out who is who. 

 And this precious picture.  I feel the strong urge to print and frame this.  

I'm so glad to be a part of this league and all the lovely ladies who make it. 

The Trouble With Men.

I'd like to think that I'm a pretty easy going individual.

One who knows how to play it cool and not be overly swoon-like.

One who, while I might be smitten, can hold a regular ol' conversation with you.  

Today- I found that this is apparently not true.  

But the reaction from the individual as well as myself were both negative.  

Or rather - I perceived their reaction to be negative.  

Also - being set up on a blind date - is kind of tragic.

Especially when the other party decides that it feels 'forced' and 

decides they'd rather meet in a group setting.  

I sent a nice "I understand" reply.

But you know what? I don't.  Perhaps it's because if anything - I didn't view it as a date.  

I looked at it as an opportunity to meet a person outside of my small circle of people.  

Exhausting.  

No really.  

I've said I'm going to give up.  

Raise my little white flag.  Resign to living a life alone.  

I can't even say I feel like I've been trying.  

Because honestly, I haven't been.  

I haven't been overly flirty.

I haven't been chasing.  

Don't they say love comes to those who wait? 

Perhaps I'm not the best at waiting.  

But I've come to the conclusion that I might as well just expect to be single for always.

Confessions

Dear ________________
You are fantastic and I'd like to get to know you more.

Dear _______________
I am your half sister.  We've met each other once that I'm aware of.  You're at least 4 years older than me.
We share the same paternal DNA, but that's all.  I'd like to find you.  Find out more about you.

Dear _____________
I think your actions are so very negative.
I used to look up to you, admire you.
But right now, I find that I want as little of you in my life as possible.

Dear _____________
I'm glad that we've become better friends.  I look forward to more of you in my life.

Dear Body
Stop being sick

I've missed 2 days of work this week.
2!

I still can't actually breath through my nose.
I was supposed to work a derby tournament this weekend - but I feel that there's no way I would be a successful NSO let alone crew head.
So instead, I will stay home this weekend.  And hopefully get better.

I can't remember the last time a cold kicked my butt like this.

Sick Again

I spent the weekend at The Hangar.

Ok...I didn't sleep there. But I might as well have.
Friday nigh - Guns N Rollers vs Cherry Cities 8 Wheel Assassins.
Saturday Morning - Open Scrimmage
Saturday Evening - Heartless Heathers vs High Rollers
Saturday Nigh - After Party
Sunday Afternoon - Rosebuds Exhibition Bout.

All of the derby was amazing.
Rose City is so awe inspiring.

All of the officiating was amazing as well.
I am ever grateful for my crew.  Their dedication - well, we couldn't do it without any of them.

But I clearly ran myself a little too thin.
I could feel it coming on towards the middle of the Sunday bout.
I got home and let myself just be and there it was.
Eff you cold.
Double Eff you derby cold.

I had to go to the grocery store - I didn't purchase anything of real consequence.
I would call in tomorrow but my teacher is out.
And I won't be there on Friday.

It's going to be a long week.

Oh - weight check in.
I'm down 12.4 lbs.
I've been doing a really bad job of tracking/eating well.
I need a spark again.  I'm not sure why I'm slacking.

Cher, where are you to slap me across the face and exclaim "Snap Out Of It"

Reclaiming The Day Off

My weekend was not productive.
In the least.

So today - President's Day - I have strived to get some of the stuff that needed doing done.

Laundry - check.
Well, except for one load.  I only had enough quarters to do 3 loads.
I even put it all away.  Including the stuff from last weeks 2 loads.
I don't know why I'm horrible at putting laundry away.

Change my Sheets - check.
They weren't the one's that came out of the dryer.
Instead I went with the fleece ones. They are so very comfy and cozy.

Grocery Shop - check.
I'm cooking for the week today.

I made an egg dish for lunch.
It includes 3 eggs plus 3 egg whites poured over garlic potato wedges, asparagus, mushroom, and green onions. I baked it in the oven and will cut it into 4 sections.  It's 2.5 points + for that part of it.
I'll eat it with a 1/2 slice of thin bread (1.5 points +) and 1/2 a wedge of laughing cow cheese (.5 points +)
There will also be a piece of fruit in there and pineapple paradise hot dog (3 points +).
Lunch will be a total of 8 points +

Dinner is in the crock pot.
I have not utilized my crock pot at all.
Black Beans, green chilies, jalapeno salsa, and chicken.
It'll be eaten in a tortilla with cheese (2 points + each)
Dinner will be a total of 10 points +

My dinner was inspired by this recipe, which I found at Skinnytaste.com
http://www.skinnytaste.com/2012/12/slow-cooker-chicken-black-bean-tacos.html#more

My hot dogs are these - and are the most delicious
http://www.aidells.com/product/14025

The day is being accompanied with my old friend Alias.
I own the series - but it's on Netflix streaming. So I've got it on in the background.

I didn't accomplish as much as I wanted - but I did get some things done.
And that's a plus.

Also - I'm really looking forward to my lunch and dinner this week.