Dear...

Dear....

I miss you so very much! More than maybe you know, i'm not really sure

Dear....

You are an amazing man, and i'm glad you are still doing what you love (well, I assume you love it)

Dear....

I miss dancing in the rain/snow with you, I can't imagine that part of my life without you

Dear...

I miss your friendship, I know I haven't lost it but it's not the same when you live on opposite sides of the states!

Dear...

Thinking about you makes me sad that we weren't able to remain friends, what happened between us?

Dear...

I didn't always understand you, but you made things much more interesting and I always respected your off beat ways!

Dear...

You were an inspiration, my last year of college would not have been the same without you

Dear...

I've always loved that we were able to remain friends, my life was made better for knowing you

not so much joy

so i'm in a slump
a big one
a big depressed slump

it's causing me to not get any work done
it's causing me to not want to do anything

it's a work/life slump
it's not good.

is admitting it the first step to getting out of this
dark and twisty place?

(yeah...I quoted grey's anatomy...)

The Julie/Julia Project

So mom and I went to the movies this afternoon.
Julie & Julia
It was really good. very funny actually.
Meryl was amazing, so was Amy
and how can you not love Stanley?!

Haven't decided if I want to see GI Joe
I think I need someone to go with other than mom
(a certain someone would be best...but he's too far away)

I need to clean, but I don't want to, so I probably wont
that's how it goes

Cupcake Plate

Or whatever you want to display

The specs:
Dollar store candle stick holder

Dollar store plate

tube of 527 glue

(and yes, it is slightly tilted, but hey, it'll get the job done)

Silence!

Quand l'Amour veut parler la Raison doit se taire

or

"When love wants to speak, Reason has to remain silent" J.F. Regnard

my name means silent in French
It couldn't be more off than if my name meant physically fit!

theres a t-shirt on zazzle.com that has this quote....i'm debating buying it
just so i can rock my name on a shirt.

I Need Your Help

Family and Friends:
Next June is Mom’s (Robin’s) 60th birthday. I have a favor to ask of you.
I would like to present my mom with a scrapbook that is full of memories and well wishes from the people who she loves and who love her. I know June 2010 seems like it’s pretty far away, but it will take time for me to put the book together.
If you would like to send something please keep it to a note/picture that will fit on a 12x12 scrapbook page. If you have a lot to say or to include just let me know that you might need 2 pages. If you don’t want to send original pictures, feel free to send color copies.
I hope that you will help me make my mom’s 60th birthday really memorable.

Email me and I'll get you my mailing address if you don't already have it.

If you’re savvy you can scan your pictures and email them to me.
I would like to get everything from everybody by the end of this year, February at the latest so that I have enough time to put the book together so that it looks good.
I look forward to your contribution
Taire

Weekend-ness...and other musings...

So this past weekend was close to rivaling the previous weekend.

Renn Faire on Saturday in Slo was so much fun. And thankfully it wasn't

horribly hot. Plus the knight we were cheering for during the Queens Joust

was awesomely funny. He was pretty amazing during the joust. I need to google him to get his name (he's the captain of the US Jousting Team....who knew that existed?!?)

Saturday night was Joan Jett at the fair. It was a pretty darn good concert. Thankfully not as cold as Boyz II Men (who I saw thurs night).

Sunday was Harry Potter....yeah, it was awesome (I need a new word). Yes it has its obvious sad moment but I laughed out loud, more than once.

This week has been dragging....I realized monday night, as I was making flowers for a friend that a week ago on monday at that time I was driving home from LA. I think I need 3 day weekends all of the time. I've been tired every day this week.

I need to join a gym but I'm afraid my money will just go to waste.

Laziness....it's ugliness, but at least I know that I'm lazy. that's the first step right?!

Back to renn faire-ness...Pirate Festival in September, be there or be square? hmm...must think of a better comparison something more pirate like. I think I want to dress up for it.

July 10 through the 13

So the evening of July 10 I went to Solvang and saw Les Mes....it was amazing! The actors did such a wonderful job...even with bats swooping at them.
PCPA always does an outstanding job. It was a fun evening with mom and Diane
and the moon looked amazing.







Saturday July 11 was the Charles Paddock Zoo with Jayme and the girls. The fun started before we left. Jayme closed the door with keys inside. So that involved sending girls in through windows......yeah. lets just say we got the keys and were on our way. It was Hot! But there happened to be an ice cream social happening that evening at the zoo. It was fun. All the ice cream you can eat....which is super dangerous for an ice cream lover. At least I knew my limit. It was a fun time and that zoo is seriously small.







Sunday July 12 I drove to LA (there are no pics for that). I found Stephs place and died in the heat. It was Super Hot! Atascadero (where the zoo is) had nothing on the heat on Saturday. It was nice to see Stephanie.

Monday July 13 was the big celebration day....I turned 27, and I did so at The Magic Kingdom. I got up to the ticket booth and pulled out my "golden ticket" and the lady said "Birthday?!" to which I said "Yup" I got a button that said Happy Birthday and went on my way. I've never had so many people tell me Happy Birthday in my entire life. It was so much fun. I arrived at the park at 10am and by 11:30 I had ridden Indiana Jones, Jungle Cruise, Haunted Mansion, and The Columbia River Boat. 4 rides in an hour and a half.....awesome. It was very worth being there all by myself.

It was a great 4 days. And now I am 27...what to do with myself?

too much stuff

so I spent most of Saturday putting together a cabinet for all of my craft supplies and sorting through it all (this also took up part of Sunday).

how did I end up with so much stuff? good grief.

i guess i need to get crafting!
It's mostly for paper crafting. Its too bad I never got into
scrapbooking....because well, I've got the stuff for it.

I'd post a picture if I were more motivated

I think I need to make a goal of getting out and doing something every weekend
beach, park, free event...just to somewhat socialize myself.

I did see Up. It was an emotional journey that I was so not expecting....not from a cartoon.
The beginning was much more traumatic than Nemo (and honestly, the beginning of Nemo
was a little traumatic). It will so be going into my collection.

Threes

So they say things happen in three's.
That might just be so this week:
Ed McMahon
Farrah Fawcett
Michael Jackson

I can't say that any one of them was near and dear to me
but i did love watching star search and what child of the
80's wasn't influenced somehow by an MJ song. Farrah,
well her battle has been fierce and brave.

I pray that all of their families find some kind of peace

I miss you

I miss just sitting watching movies with you

I miss wondering around the grocery store with you
even though you hated it

I
just
miss
you

Too Much Stuff

So I'm helping my friend move.
She's got a lot of stuff (two kids means lots and lots of stuff)
but it makes me think about all of the "stuff" I have.

I have a whole lot of crap

More than I need.

I got rid of stuff when I moved,
but probably not enough.

I've only been home for a year
and I've already accumulated more.

How do people live with a minimal amount of items?
I guess I like having
things too much.

It's hard right now because all I have is a room
and I have enough to fill an apartment at least.

which leads me to....
I need to move out!
i crave my own place.

car

I put $47 worth of gas in my car in two days. Lompoc, home, lompoc, home, goleta, home. Ewww.

That is not an awesome amount of money to spend on gas.

as lady M would say: epic failure

Gran Torino was an amazing movie.
well worth the time spent watching it.
Serious, Funny, oddly heartwarming

I enjoyed it very much so....and that car was just beautiful!

where do weekends go? where do weeks go?
where do months go? I can't believe it's almost the end of June.
But yay for the first day of summer!

so you think you can

dance! I didn't watch the show until I moved back home.
I suppose that if I'm going to watch reality tv (other than deadliest catch of course)
this is one I can get into.

It's almost Friday.....Yay!

Record bowl making will be happening Saturday night, very exciting.

I need to go somewhere, not far away, just a weekend getaway.
That would be supurb.

Supurb....makes me want to watch Empire Records

me

I could never be one of those girls......

who has everything pulled together

that rocks the red lipstick

who has envy worthy outfits

who manages to find love quickly

that scores awesome deals at the thrift store

In my head I imagine a much more saavy

thrifty amazing me but I don't know how to get there

pics

The lovely girls......I can't believe M is a high school graduate! I'm so proud of her. And well G, she's just amazing. 2 more yrs of high school for her. I do believe I'm going to miss them.

This is what was accross from the Avila Barn.
I wonder what happened to it.

It's things like this that I want to take more pictures of.....random yet interesting. That's what I strive to capture.

If i could take more pictures of birds/animals...I would do that too. This guy lives at the avila barn. He posed for me. Must be used to silly people taking his picture

June, already!

I can't believe it's already June!
And pretty much the middle.
Where is my life going?!

I didn't go to the rodeo.
Already not fulfilling my list.
Gar.

Graduation day tomorrow
Three of them.....it's going to be a crazy long day.
But exciting. Can't believe that the girls are graduating
from High School.

June already......one more month and I inch closer to 30
eek!

One Year

It's been one year.
One year ago I said goodbye to the city of good neighbors
boarded a plane
and made my way back to california.

one year ago

I miss

• the freedom of watching what I want, when I want


• dancing in the middle of my living room


• not closing the bathroom door in the middle of the night


• buying food and being the only one who eats it


• enjoying a city


• feeling more in control


• having people


• eating at Nicks Place


• just doing things, no questions asked


• just being

I Want To:

go camping this summer. I never was fond of it when I was younger, not that I did a lot of camping....only in Girl Scouts. But I walk down the aisles full of tents and camping gear and I want to go. a couple of friends to go along with would be nice.

go to the rodeo. I haven't been since I was in the 4th grade. Which is sort of odd since there's one here in Santa Maria every June. Granted when I was younger I was at the mercy of my mom who I don't think was a fan. I think it would be fun to go again.

travel more. honestly. I think moving back has made me slightly sheltered again. now I have a car, so I don't have an excuse right? where should I travel to though.
i'm thinkin vegas....or maybe somewhere closer

find people. how do you do this when you're almost late twenty something and not in school?
crafting group...are there any around and how do I find them?

get organized. I pretend to be, but man alive my room is a disaster. i'm just not motivated....I miss having space.

be a better saver. hmmm...yeah. I suck at saving, budgeting, not spending money when I'm not supposed to.

move into my own place. that goes with being a better saver though I suppose. well, that and I've got to get my new job groove on and get more money in my bank account.

visit my people in Buffalo. It's almost been a year! I miss them!

be happy

debt

I bought a car
Holy Cow Batman
2006 Chevy Cobalt

I get it on Wednesday

I think that's when it'll be real

i hate having a cold. they sort of just come on. one minute you can breath, the next moment
you can feel fluids just draining into your throat. attractive right? right.

getting more excited for my seattle/portland trip. i just need to figure out what to pack. i'm wishing my itouch hadn't been stolen....it would have been perfect for this trip. oh well.

long work week.....the kids have minimum days all week which means we have them for an extra 1.5 hours. it might not seem like a long time but it is!

i'm ready for friday and it's only the end of tuesday.

boo

driving and a 1,700 yr old tree

26 year old finally gets her license. It's a miracle.

the picture, not so good. I look very red. I suppose it could be worse.

The freedom is nice. Now I just have to find myself an inexpensive car.


A few weekends ago I went to winter camp with the HS youth group.
It was an amazing weekend, and it was nice to see the kids in a place where


quite a few of them let down their guard and just worship and praise God.


When we left the vehicle I was in made a stop. A great stop.
We (2 of us...the leaders) walked the trail to the General Grant Sequoia.


It's size is just amazing.....and the fact that it is about 1,700 years old just makes standing in its presence
breathtaking

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/General_grant_tree (facts about the tree)

I think I need to go back and and see the rest of the trees.

The Beach

So on Tuesday, before I got all sorts of sick, I went to the beach. Yay for the beach. Yay for being hot enough to go to the beach. Though, the water was frigid. It was beautiful (minus the dead pelican under the pier). It's so much fun watching Tabby and Kaydee play in the little pools of water that are around the pier.

and whatever the most random thing you think you could find on the beach is...I bet I have it beat.

That's right, a headless statue. It was small. Maybe 7 inches tall. Don't know why it was just standing there...but randomness at the beach is always fun.

Perhaps I'll leave this post with a slightly more beach like picture. And the musing: I am not prepared to go back to work next week. At All!

I vote for more beach

something pretty

just a flower that has bloomed in front of the house.

I've been getting in a little more driving in...which is a good thing. I need to figure out when I want to take the drive test and schedule that. Put pressure on myself and my mom.

Hope where there shouldn't be any

Yesterday I went to the Museum of Tolerance. I've been before.....one other time to the one in L.A. and once to the one in D.C.
We went through the tour (very crowded) and decided to go listen to the Holocaust Survivor speak at 2. I sort of knew what to expect, I've heard a survivor before. But I was completely unprepared.
We had the pleasure of hearing Elizabeth Mann speak. She was born in Hungary on December 31, 1925. She spent one year at Auschwitz. She has no idea how she survived....Her father, brother, and mother were all killed pretty much the moment they arrived. Her story is heart wrenching. But at the end of it she talked about hope and believing in the good of others. She is truly an inspiring woman. To talk about believing in the good of others after everything she's been through reminds me that no matter what hope remains.
I can't imagine what she's been through, but hers is a story and message that needs to be heard round the world.