One who knows how to play it cool and not be overly swoon-like.
One who, while I might be smitten, can hold a regular ol' conversation with you.
Today- I found that this is apparently not true.
But the reaction from the individual as well as myself were both negative.
Or rather - I perceived their reaction to be negative.
Also - being set up on a blind date - is kind of tragic.
Especially when the other party decides that it feels 'forced' and
decides they'd rather meet in a group setting.
I sent a nice "I understand" reply.
But you know what? I don't. Perhaps it's because if anything - I didn't view it as a date.
I looked at it as an opportunity to meet a person outside of my small circle of people.
Exhausting.
No really.
I've said I'm going to give up.
Raise my little white flag. Resign to living a life alone.
I can't even say I feel like I've been trying.
Because honestly, I haven't been.
I haven't been overly flirty.
I haven't been chasing.
Don't they say love comes to those who wait?
Perhaps I'm not the best at waiting.
But I've come to the conclusion that I might as well just expect to be single for always.
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